Thursday, May 8, 2014

UNTITLED


No one knows the kind of surprise life has in store for all of us.  Sometimes it’ll be in the form of finding the truest sense and meaning of one’s existence by merely taking a plunge of oneself into the most wonderful and powerful thing in the world – LOVE!  Other times also, life carts off something very relevant so that one might appreciate how it is to have less for the benefit and happiness of others – SELFLESSNESS!
You see, there are a lot to life than simply looking out from your window pane or standing still or sitting on a chair or bench perhaps.  Although at times one needs to slow down and manifest some kind of lookin’ out and standin’ still or sitting down – a break from all the hustles and bustles of life which, of course, everybody deserves.

Life could also be so amazing that it’ll require you to delve its strata much like of what geologists do to Earth!  But more of the scientific side of being, life also could take you to the abyss of extreme distress.  And such misery feels like adding amounts of salt and lemon extract to a wound slashed by Kenshien’s samurai.
I once come across a movie which really moved me because of the character’s profound courage.   A she who has given almost everything in her life to follow her heart’s desires – to simply eat, pray and love…  Doing things you wanna do in life no matter what it outlays you take a whole lot of bravery.  Even if the whole universe’s gonna take its toll on you, you won’t care for as long as you love what you’re doing and you’re real happy about it.  ‘Coz after all, the battles gonna be between you and yourself…

Loving yourself more than anything else in the world really pays back.  It doesn’t matter if you fall so hard that you no longer feel like living for as long as you know how to recognize that ray of light so you can rise again… It doesn’t matter if you have sinned against someone for as long as you know well how to forgive yourself…  It doesn’t matter really if you lose balance for love ‘coz it’s still part of a balanced life…

Deciding to pick yourself off the grave or letting yourself fall into a pit constitute life.  Rising and falling do not only reside in your English class, specifically on intonation, but also in real life.  How one deals with life’s intonation also matters.  Whatever it is that you have within will always resonate outside your inner self – and people will see them!

Selflessness, Courage, Acceptance, Love, and Prayer…  Let this SCALP protect your head so it could properly dictate your heart what to do when the time comes that it encounters baffling states.

Serendipity – Fortunate Accident!

‘Been a wanderer for so long
Lookin’ out for somethin’ beyond just anythin’
For in this Gargantuan world lies so much of life
Causing anyone to go around puzzled and all
I remember an eremite from Bali in a movie once said
“Sometimes Losing Balance for Love
Is Part of A Balanced Life”
It is therefore substantial to lose oneself in a moment
Just so he/she could experience the thing called –
Fortunate Accident…

Friday, December 9, 2011

FAINTHEARTED

Abscission…
Really time has passed her by
From being the joyous creature
To being the gloomiest…
Never did she had the chance
To make it with life
The kind of life that’s truly free and happy
Hardly, she’s been longing for something
Something which everyone else has been
Dominated powerfully with…
The very thing that everyone else has been wanting in exchange for all their lifetimes
But the fainthearted being’s too scared to even try
For she fully knew what’s in store for her
The moment she decided to enter its realm…
Too much desire to be right
Had instigated her to become that damsel in distress
Though fully aware of the affinity that they both have
Time constraints didn’t allow them to be together
She happened to come a minute ago prior their meeting again
The fainthearted then decided to reside within her world
A world with great impermeability
So as to avoid the negativities that life could possibly bring

UNDER THE MOONLIGHT

Under the lovely moon
There they let their hearts lay down
Feeling the warmth of each other’s embrace
While watching the beauty of the night light
And truly it felt like they were somewhere else
It was as if they’re in a huge air bubble
Gently swept away by the loving wind
As the exquisiteness of the night goes on
It’s like a fantasy-turned-reality
Where two beings became amalgamated once again
After all the strife they’ve been through

Laying on the green blade of grass
While feeling the night’s cool breeze
As it softly touches and tickles the hands
Tightly holding and never letting each other go
Leaves anyone an imprint that no matter what
It’s going to stay that way not ‘til forever
But for eternity…

And should anything comes splitting up the two
Shall not triumph nor be victorious
For what they have has been rooted deeply
From great trust, respect and love
And from the kind of friendship that has long been tested
By so much catastrophes and ruins
Which they both consider as precious gifts…

A DECADE OF LOVE

All these years I thought I totally forget everything about you.  Though there was never an existence of “us”, still my memories of you haunt me so well.  I never thought that you still reside in the deepest part of me.  Maybe I was too scared to be rejected over again – not anymore if such rejection will come from you.  That’s why I decided to withdraw myself from you. Unconsciously, I still talk to people about you.  Damn!  I don’t know if this is a curse or whatever…  But maybe the relationships I had didn’t work out simply because I was never really over you….

Well, it’s been a decade already since that day when I started to fall for you.  God knows it was heaven on earth for me when we get to communicate often.  I couldn’t even forget the time when you invited me to a gathering in your house.  That was way back in college!  And oh before I forget, I couldn’t really help but remember the exact date when we rode on the same PUV from church.  If I’m not mistaken, you were to visit your special someone at that time.  You didn’t know me at the time ‘coz we’re from opposite worlds.  Nevertheless, it was an answered prayer for me. 

However, you flew to another side of the world to (maybe) find your luck.  I never had the chance to see you much as I wanted to.  Hence I settled to just keep on with life.  I knew back then that I have to get myself a life.  And so here’s what I have become now…

I tried so hard to convince myself that I am perfect, that everything’s okay.  Not until tonight, when I read this paperback.  It’s as if every memorial I’ve buried seems to come back to life.  I could only imagine myself making out a family with you.  It may sound so absurd but whenever I come to hear mass at the very cathedral where you used to go, all I can see is a blurred picture of you and someone special with kids around – and I must be so honest that I am imagining that someday, if the Lord allows, it’d be me.

Though this may sound hoping against hope, still in my heart rests a hopeful heart that loves and faithful to you no matter what….. (T _ T)