FAINTHEARTED

Abscission…
Really time has passed her by
From being the joyous creature
To being the gloomiest…
Never did she had the chance
To make it with life
The kind of life that’s truly free and happy
Hardly, she’s been longing for something
Something which everyone else has been
Dominated powerfully with…
The very thing that everyone else has been wanting in exchange for all their lifetimes
But the fainthearted being’s too scared to even try
For she fully knew what’s in store for her
The moment she decided to enter its realm…
Too much desire to be right
Had instigated her to become that damsel in distress
Though fully aware of the affinity that they both have
Time constraints didn’t allow them to be together
She happened to come a minute ago prior their meeting again
The fainthearted then decided to reside within her world
A world with great impermeability
So as to avoid the negativities that life could possibly bring

UNDER THE MOONLIGHT

Under the lovely moon

There they let their hearts lay down

Feeling the warmth of each other’s embrace

While watching the beauty of the night light

And truly it felt like they were somewhere else

It was as if they’re in a huge air bubble

Gently swept away by the loving wind

As the exquisiteness of the night goes on

It’s like a fantasy-turned-reality

Where two beings became amalgamated once again

After all the strife they’ve been through

Laying on the green blade of grass

While feeling the night’s cool breeze

As it softly touches and tickles the hands

Tightly holding and never letting each other go

Leaves anyone an imprint that no matter what

It’s going to stay that way not ‘til forever

But for eternity…

And should anything comes splitting up the two

Shall not triumph nor be victorious

For what they have has been rooted deeply

From great trust, respect and love

And from the kind of friendship that has long been tested

By so much catastrophes and ruins

Which they both consider as precious gifts…

A DECADE OF LOVE

All these years I thought I totally forget everything about you.  Though there was never an existence of “us”, still my memories of you haunt me so well.  I never thought that you still reside in the deepest part of me.  Maybe I was too scared to be rejected over again – not anymore if such rejection will come from you.  That’s why I decided to withdraw myself from you. Unconsciously, I still talk to people about you.  Damn!  I don’t know if this is a curse or whatever…  But maybe the relationships I had didn’t work out simply because I was never really over you….

Well, it’s been a decade already since that day when I started to fall for you.  God knows it was heaven on earth for me when we get to communicate often.  I couldn’t even forget the time when you invited me to a gathering in your house.  That was way back in college!  And oh before I forget, I couldn’t really help but remember the exact date when we rode on the same PUV from church.  If I’m not mistaken, you were to visit your special someone at that time.  You didn’t know me at the time ‘coz we’re from opposite worlds.  Nevertheless, it was an answered prayer for me. 

However, you flew to another side of the world to (maybe) find your luck.  I never had the chance to see you much as I wanted to.  Hence I settled to just keep on with life.  I knew back then that I have to get myself a life.  And so here’s what I have become now…

I tried so hard to convince myself that I am perfect, that everything’s okay.  Not until tonight, when I read this paperback.  It’s as if every memorial I’ve buried seems to come back to life.  I could only imagine myself making out a family with you.  It may sound so absurd but whenever I come to hear mass at the very cathedral where you used to go, all I can see is a blurred picture of you and someone special with kids around – and I must be so honest that I am imagining that someday, if the Lord allows, it’d be me.

Though this may sound hoping against hope, still in my heart rests a hopeful heart that loves and faithful to you no matter what….. (T _ T)